i'm pretentious. found out about something. want to clear my doubt. should i ask.
do i still belong. among you all. are we still as united as one? am i being left out. i felt so alone. whenever i'm with you all. do i know nothing. do i know nothing at all.
that's why i'm so quiet and depressed that day. i realised i do not belong. is it cos of me.
my once happy and bright character. now turned pretentious. i realy do not know.
do i belong. answer to my cries.
or is it cos i think too much. worrying at every little thing.
or is it i am afraid of betrayal. loneliness and the loss of frenship?.
i seem to not know anything. what are you all talking about.
i guess i may not have the right to kow anything. but please do not leave me out.
i miss the laughter. i miss the fun. and most of all.
I MISS YOU ALL.
please dont do this.
i may seem happy.
but i am at the same time. afraid i might lose this friendship.
afraid. REALLY AFRAID.
why does it always have to happen on me.
primary 4. or was it 5?
ever since then, i have been worrying. if i suddenly have no friends. what will i do?
what if they actually dont like me. what if we quarrel. what if they actualy don't trust me.
all the what if's..
it happens.. again. in sec 2.. by the ones whom i called friends..
i din't want to worry. but i found out i was retreating. in the group. but why. am i too bad or what?
it seems i don't know anything.
nothing at all. about whatever is going on around.
god. please help me.
